Sunday, January 1, 2012
Bf is indulging more on me nowadays with premium movies! First was Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 2 followed by Twilight Saga - Breaking Dawn Part 1 and lastly, The Darkest Hour on New Year's Eve.
And, no more last min plans with friends anymore. Totally screwed up my last night of 2011 T.T Should have listened to bf and let him take me to KL for New Year. Instead, i chosed to stay in Sg because i thought i had plans with friends already! He even checked out the price for MBS but it's just too bad there's no normal rooms left. Only left with rooms that cost $4000++
Crazy! I rather spend that sum on a bag/shoes or a trip! Oh well. Nvm. It's all last year already.
It has since been 5 months since ah mah left. Sometimes i wonder, would she be watching down at us somewhere smiling? Or is it that after one passed on, one ceased to exist? I miss her, so much so that it hurts. I was reminded by a dream i had a week after her funeral that me, my mother, aunt and Marlon lost her in a city that looks like Taipei. She went missing while aunt and mother got too engrossed in a super sale in a provision like shop selling fruits. I noticed it and went after her but lost her as there were too many people. Soon, we were all looking for her frantically. And very weird, soon i felt very hungry and exhausted suddenly and shouted to bf to get me some food before continuing the search. It ended with me realizing it doesn't matter that we can't find her now because she will be okay, and we will definitely meet one day again, in this very lifetime. And that she will come back to us. It sounds totally impossible i know. But ever since that dream, it doesn't hurt that much anymore everytime i think of her. Because we WILL meet again. This i believe.
Anyway, I sincerely hope that everybody can let go of all the unhappiness in 2011 and welcome 2012 with a smile. Let's hope everybody will have a wonderful 2012 and let it be fill with nothing but happiness! Love my bf, dogs, cat, family and friends. I'm blessed to have all of you in my life! :)
Yours Truly, 4:52 AM
